The one thing about turning 50 is that there are a lot of parties...I didn't have one thankfully but 2 of my friends from high school are this weekend one of whom I partied with through my 20s. One tonight and one on Saturday night. So we are going back to my home town for the parties. I am not worried about drinking. If it gets uncomfortable I'll leave...these are my friends not my husbands so he should be good with that. At first I thought I'd walk in guns blazing....I'm an Alcoholic! I go to AA, ! need to make an amends to you!.....for that time I threw up in the centerpiece at your wedding, or that time you left me in Rhode Island without a car (I'm sure because I was so drunk that I was obnoxious) or the time I made you miss Aerosmith because I threw up in the aisle before they even got on stage. I am pretty confident that people will notice that I'm not drinking. My reputation from those days is life of the party and pounding them down! But I realized this morning at the meeting that I just need to take a breath and slow down. Whether I tell them, whether I make amends is not in my time but in God's time. If it happens it happens if not that's okay too. The point is I am willing. Thank God for step meetings and sponsers.There are no meetings in the town where I went to high school. I find that amazing. Maybe its just my perception but it seemed to me that 90% of my graduating class drank and drugged. I've got a meeting list for the surrounding area so I'm good but geez!
So Have a great weekend.....sober!
6 comments:
wow!!
quite a week of milestones;
1 year sober and the big five o!
kudos on your year; and remember life begins at 50.
you sound well prepared for your weekend of parties. enjoy!
I hope that you have a great time. I am amazed at what you write about your drinking days. I've seen some bad things over the years but....throwing up in the center piece made me laugh for some reason. Have a great weekend and enjoy being sober.
happy 50th"!!
and congrats on your 1st anniversary... may you have many more 1 days at a time :)
Do what feels right Kathy, but most of all, have fun and be proud of how far you have come.
hey kathy ill be 40 next year.
Yes I loved to party, but with no one left to party with at the end I was to enjoy the party in my head sat alone in the woods.
I have felt real angry and drepressed all weekend, I said lots of prayers but still the anger keeps coming, its churning out of me, like a volcano, spitting over everyone, ill be glad to go to AA tonight.
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