Lately, more than once or twice, people have been asking me if I'm okay. Telling me I look sad. I don't feel sad. I feel content most of the time. I'm not having too much trouble with the non smoking thing thanks to the patch. I haven't even been napping. Maybe that's the problem. So I'm not sure why my outside is not matching my inside. But I'm not going to walk around with a silly smile on my face all the time. Maybe that's it, the difference between happiness and contentment and perhaps people are noticing the transition. I think I just did. I have been so happy to be sober maybe because I am so suprised that I have gotten this far and that I like it. Life is so much better. One woman said to me last week that I was the most enthusiatic newcomer she had ever met. Maybe that enthusiasm has just settled into acceptance.
I can live with that.
About Me
- Kathy Lynne
- North Shore, Massachusetts
- "But the first salt wind from the east, the first sight of the lighthouse set boldly on its outer rock, the flash of a gull, the waiting procession of seaward-bound firs on an island, made me feel solid and definate again..." -Sarah Orne Jewitt
Contemplative Outreach
On My Way
"I look to the future because that is where I'm going to spend my life" George Burns
Step 1
Surrender -Accept the Things I Cannot Change
Step 2
Came to Believe -Change the Things That I Can
Step 3
The Care of God -Wisdom to Know the Difference
MY TRUE INSPIRATION
Then
And Now
4 comments:
people often mistakenly read a drop in nervous energy as being 'depressed'. not so. just means you are less 'excitable', less reactive. more settled. to the practiced eye, it does not look 'depressed'. most people do not understand what it means to be serene. thats for sure. oh well. the road gets narrower as they say..
glad the smober is going well.
WIERD you mentioned people asking if u okay today. We still seem to be on same wave length. The girl in my doctor's office asked me that today too. And I wondered - I FEEL okay but why'd she ask that? Do I look sad? Of course I WAS in the doctor's office and who is really HAPPY bout that ya know?!
and acceptance is a good place to be at!
OK, so we are both still not smoking..still not drinking...or drugin'.
I say we start cussing like sailors...what do yo say? :)
Enjoy your "calm" day.
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